Trigger warning: family member with terminal illness
This was initially meant to be a much longer post, but it’s ended up as a relatively short update because that’s all I feel I can share right now. I would love to be able to write something longer or more profound, but at this point in time, I just don’t have it in me. At least not this day.
Some of my readers and lovely friends on this site might have noticed that I announced some big changes to come to Fistful of Glitter in August and that after the announcement there was complete radio silence. There were quite a few changes that I had lined up at the time, ones that I fully intended to see through, and then something major in my life changed.
Over the past two years, my beloved Mum has been suffering from triple negative breast cancer, cancer that we discovered was terminal in the middle of last year. In early October 2018, it had progressed to the point that Mum needed my attention more than my work did. At that point, I made a choice and everything else besides Mum fell by the wayside, often with very little explanation. I don’t have any siblings and my father passed away years ago, so only I could provide family assistance. Luckily we were helped out by many kind and talented individuals, both medical professionals and friends. I am forever grateful to those people for helping me care for my Mum during that those months. Without their support, I wouldn’t have had time to eat, sleep or look after myself much at all so I’m incredibly thankful to each and every one of them for their presence.
In late November 2018 Mum left home for the final time and spent her last days in Clare Holland House, the hospice by the lake in our home town. She passed away on January 5th, 2019 at 12.15pm surrounded by myself, my partner, her support worker (who I think is probably part-superhero for all the amazing strength and kindness she showed to both Mum and I) and her long-term Auslan interpreter.
It’s tough to try and explain how I feel at the moment, and I’m not sure I want to explain it to the world, not quite yet. What I can say is: I am okay as I can be right now, and I have some pretty great support around me, but I hope you can understand my absence, and why it might be a while before anything even resembling regular updates to this blog happen again. I really, really appreciate every bit of support I’ve had through the site, both from those who know my story and those who haven’t until now.
Thank you for reading my blog, and thank you for having patience with me.